We just finalized the divorce papers last week. All things considered, it went pretty smoothly. I know Rachel is angry, but she seems to be dealing with it on her own terms. Once she decided it was over, she didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. It was like some switch flipped in her heart. I became a stranger, someone she neither loved nor hated, someone she simply felt nothing for either way. I think that’s what hurts the most. Jesus, it hurts like hell.
I haven’t been sleeping very well lately, and sometimes, to clear my head, I get in my car and drive. I don’t go anywhere in particular, but there’s always been something reassuring about getting behind the wheel, knowing if I felt like it, I could keep heading on down the road and disappear forever.
Right about now, disappearing sounds pretty good…
E.T. Hourihan 
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